Friday, 26 February 2016

ST PAUL'S SERMON: THE TEMPTATIONS OF JESUS


Look at the picture while hearing the Gospel - Luke 4:1-13

4 Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, returned from the Jordan and was led by the Spirit in the wilderness, where for forty days he was tempted by the devil. He ate nothing at all during those days, and when they were over, he was famished. The devil said to him, ‘If you are the Son of God, command this stone to become a loaf of bread.Jesus answered him, ‘It is written, “One does not live by bread alone.”’

Then the devilled him up and showed him in an instant all the kingdoms of the world. And the devil said to him, ‘To you I will give their glory and all this authority; for it has been given over to me, and I give it to anyone I please. If you, then, will worship me, it will all be yours.Jesus answered him, ‘It is written, “Worship the Lord your God, and serve only him.”

Then the devil took him to Jerusalem, and placed him on the pinnacle of the temple, saying to him, ‘If you are the Son of God, throw yourself down from here, 10 for it is written, “He will command his angels concerning you, to protect you”, 11 and “On their hands they will bear you up, so that you will not dash your foot against a stone.”’

12 Jesus answered him, ‘It is said, “Do not put the Lord your God to the test.”13 When the devil had finished every test, he departed from him until an opportune time.




Today is the first Sunday in Lent, as well as St Valentine’s day… Did you know, even if you’ve given chocolate up for Lent, that Sunday’s of Lent are feast days, not fast days? The start of Lent was moved from today to Ash Wednesday to accommodate the Sundays as feast days. Sundays in Lent are feast days as a weekly microcosm of Easter, a day for celebrating the Resurrection epitomised in the Eucharist. The reprieve from the fast on the Sundays of Lent is meant to keep us from falling into a rut of fasting simply for the sake of self-denial, they remind us that the purpose of Lent is to prepare us to receive the reconciliation and new life God offers us in Christ. Even though the fast is typically relaxed on Sundays, the sights and sounds of the liturgy are usually stripped to a minimum – clergy trade the bright green vestments of ‘Ordinary Time’ for purple, the traditional colour of repentance and humility. Flowers are typically absent, and images throughout the church are often veiled or removed, especially during Holy Week. The sounds of worship are usually toned down as well, and the more joyful recitations like the Gloria and Hallelujah’s are temporarily suppressed to remind us of their joyful power when they are restored….

Religion at its best uses scripture and scriptural images as a metaphor for descriptions of essentially spiritual (not physical) realities – if we choose to examine scripture merely at a literal level, we only appreciate the lowest level of meaning. So by using the picture and the words at the same time, in prayerful God inspired refection, we are invited to discover deeper truths…

This lent, our sermon series is based on reflections assisted by paintings, and appropriately enough, our painting for today is Briton Riviera’s 1898 painting “The Temptation in the Wilderness”, described in our gospel reading…

For me, the painting picks up on the minimalist, stripped down contemplative simplicity of Lent, as a lonely Jesus sits, in silence, head bowed…. Can you imagine the words described in our Gospel going through Jesus’ mind?

What went through your mind as you looked at the picture while hearing the Gospel? What are the big and true meanings of the passage and the picture for you?

Richard Rohr makes an interesting point about the big and true meaning being about Jesus’ response to the devil in this passage – he says how the misuse of our power, or our failure to use our power at all, is what undoes most human lives and that how Jesus does neither in his response to Satan, thus showing us a way through

The temptations Luke describes universal temptations to three abuses of power:

    The misuse of social or cultural power (turning stones into bread in in a way that would be spectacular and draw attention to Himself) ….

    The misuse of religious power (to stand in the parapet of the temple and to quote scripture for his own purpose) ….

      The misuse of political or dominative power (looking down on all the kingdoms of this world from a high mountain position) …

Note how, in each case, Jesus merely uses scripture to expose and exorcise the demon, and all the demon can do is depart. Jesus does have His own legitimate place and power, yet he very delicately does not over-identify with His power, which would only set ‘an equal and opposite reaction’ against Him personally, and so deflects the energy from Himself and quotes three very God-centred scriptures to show where the real conflict lies: between God and evil and not between ‘me’ and evil….
We too can learn from this, and so not make the mistake of allowing our own ego’s to get involved by taking things personally and fighting back to defend our small, insecure selves. This is possibly the mistake Adam and Eve made in regard to their temptation, which can only put them in a state of greater exposure, nakedness and shame.

Jesus shows us an ideal way to deal with temptation and how to recognise what the underlying temptation usually is: to a misuse or a non-use of our very real human power. Jesus refuses to eat of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil in any self-serving way, and leaves that final and full knowledge to God alone!

What are the big and true meanings for you? Dare you hold out for your own big and true meanings whenever you pray or contemplate scripture? Amen!

  1. Rev Gavin Smith 2016




Wednesday, 24 February 2016

LENT COURSE: SESSION 3

LENT THREE:
THE DISCIPLE CITIZEN IN THE WORKPLACE

In this session we explore the meanings of wealth and work for the contemporary disciple citizen.

WORK

For the disciple work is both a curse and a blessing.  The curse flows from Adam’s fall.  In Eden Adam and Eve had their every need provided. After their fall, and their expulsion from the Garden God tells Adam “Cursed is the ground because of you; through painful toil you will eat of it all the days of your life,” Genesis 3:17.

The blessing is the sense that through our work we can participate with our God in the continuing creation of his kingdom.  In our creation story, when God had completed his six days of creation he gave the man and woman he had created dominion (perhaps stewardship would be a better word) over his creation. Genesis 1:27).

WEALTH

The Oxford Dictionary gives as its very first meaning for the word wealth The condition of being happy and prosperous; well being. It also records the earliest use of this word from 1652 an instance or kind of prosperity; a felicity, blessing.

We find another useful sense of this word from the economist Schumpeter’s definition of entrepreneurship.  An entrepreneur is someone who Combines resources in new ways to make more.

Disciples are clearly called to be entrepreneurs as Christ indicates in the parable of the talents Matthew 24: 14 – 30.
  

Wealth then is much more than a huge bank balance or a number with many zeros.

The curse of wealth

The dangers of wealth are repeatedly made clear in our scriptures, both in our old and our new testament, particularly in the oracles of the prophets (most particularly Amos and Micah) and throughout the teachings of Christ.

A careful reading of these warnings about wealth reveals that it is not wealth itself that poses a danger to our immortal soul but rather wealth that is ill-gained, and wealth that is ill-used. Also wealth that becomes an idol – a barrier or rival to our daily engagement with our God and his creation.

*What are examples of wealth that is ill-gained in the world of work in our times?
*What are examples of wealth that is ill-used in the world work in our times?

The blessing of wealth

Through combining the resources available to us we can create something that brings greater well being for the people of God, and indeed for his entire creation.  Our history is also the record of empowering technology, better shelter, more abundant food, greatly improved medical treatment, transport, communication - all of which have improved the well being of billions.

*What are examples of entrepreneurship that has brought great gains in well being in our times?

And for those blessed with greater wealth than they need for their own immediate needs a further blessing is to be able to use this wealth to create prosperity, a felicity and a blessing for others.

The woman who anointed Christ’s feet with expensive perfume is but one example of this.  So too is Joseph of Arimathea who ensured the proper preparation of Christ’s body and dignified burial.

*What are the equivalents of the perfume and the burial in our times?


THE DISCIPLE CITIZEN IN THE WORKPLACE

The disciple worker should experience her work as participating in God’s creative process: in the creation of well being; or a felicity or blessing. Indeed as being a construction worker on the building site of the Kingdom of God.

Just as our creation story tells us that our Creator God saw that it was not good for Adam to be alone and created for him a helpmate, so too little of our work can be accomplished alone. 

Many hands do indeed make light work.  They also build relationships, trust and joy.  An old maxim of industrial psychology notes that almost every activity has two purposes: achieving the task and maintaining the group.

*How does the disciple worker learn to discriminate between good and bad wealth and good and bad work?

Fair reward: one of Christ’s most challenging parables if the parable of the workers in the field.  Workers arrive at first light, at midday and during the afternoon.  Each receives the same pay.  No worker has been paid unfairly.  But workers have been paid unequally for the hours they have worked.

*How do we decide what is fair reward: for those who work at the ‘bottom’ of an organization structure (should it be seen as the bottom), those in the middle, and those at the top?


Leading men and women at work: leading or managing people at work are a key responsibility of the disciple citizen in the workplace.  The questions abound:

*How do we engage the full worker: head, heart and muscle?

*How do we balance the rights and responsibilities of a citizen worker?

*How do we end employment fairly?

*How do we help the citizen worker balance his and her responsibilities as a worker and in the family?

*For the disciple manager how does she or he ‘keep faith’ with those they lead about values, ethics and honest behaviour?



Wednesday, 17 February 2016

LENT COURSE: SESSION 2

SECOND DISCUSSION 23 FEBRUARY 2016



The disciple citizen and God: the place Creator dreamed for me in a political, social and economic world. 
Rendering unto Caesar: who is Caesar and what must the disciple citizen render unto him?

Jeremiah 1:5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations”
Psalm 139 : 13 “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb”

Is it possible to imagine that the Creator dreamed for me a body, a soul, family, a home, talents – every set of circumstances surrounding me, but excluding the country ( or countries) where I live, work, and exercise my faith? This seems unlikely. Surely we have a specific niche, a particular role to play, as citizens as well as parents, children, siblings, neighbours, employers, employees, parishioners, disciples?

What is this place, South Africa, where we need to draw on our faith to discover our role, what shapes us and what we can shape?

Let’s start this journey of discovery by looking at the hymn our national anthem is based on, the full-length isiXhosa version of Nkosi Sikelele.  (The link http://www.endarkenment.com/kwanzaa/nkosi/versions.htm  will give you isiXhosa, isiZulu, Afrikaans, English and Sesotho versions)

God Bless Africa 
Original Lovedale English Translation 
Lord, bless Africa;
May her horn rise high up;
Hear Thou our prayers And bless us
.
Chorus

Descend, O Spirit,
Descend, O Holy Spirit.
Bless our chiefs
May they remember their Creator.

Fear Him and revere Him,
That He may bless them.
Bless the public men,
Bless also the youth

That they may carry the land with patience
and that Thou mayst bless them.
Bless the wives
And also all young women;

Lift up all the young girls
And bless them.
Bless the ministers
of all the churches of this land;

Endue them with Thy Spirit 
And bless them. 
Bless agriculture and stock raising
Banish all famine and diseases;

Fill the land with good health
And bless it.
Bless our efforts
of union and self-uplift,

Of education and mutual understanding
And bless them.
Lord, bless Africa
Blot out all its wickedness

And its transgressions and sins,
And bless it. 

(If you like, you can compare this with other, more bloodthirsty anthems. I think it was Pieter Dirk Uys who described the Marsellaise as “Music for dondering the English” http://lyricstranslate.com/en/la-marseillaise-song-marseille.html

DISCUSSION : If all you knew about South Africa was this anthem, what would you think about the country? How would you update it – what blessings would you ask for the country as it is today?

For the Romans, citizenship seems to have been a serious and also rather a grim business. “Dulce et decorum est, pro patria mori” “It is sweet and glorious to die for one’s country” (This link will give you Wilfred Owen’s First World War poem of the same name : http://www.warpoetry.co.uk/owen1.html ) We have to do something much harder than dying for our country – we have to live in and for it. And surely we should be doing this with delight, at least some of the time?  This is how the psalmist tells us how to do it :Psalm 37 3-4 “Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. Delight yourself in the Lord” Alan Paton titled one of his books ‘Ah but your land is beautiful’

How do we recover for ourselves the beauty of our land? Perhaps the Stellenbosch students had the right idea, when they called on us to #Luister – Listen. We need to listen with that phrase of Michelle’s – the ears of our heart. The scale of the media and public discussion is filled on one side with what is negative. Without denying what is negative, we need to balance it by seeing what is positive, and then sharing this.

DISCUSSION Perhaps your group could draw a scale, and put the different images, drawn or written, of the country, into both sides of the scale. Or put together a collage of pictures on a mask – the outside being the way the country is portrayed publicly, and the inside being our own experience, when we look and listen as disciples.

DISCUSSION What shapes our perceptions of our country? How do we shape other people’s perceptions? What is our role as disciples in this? If we apply the St Paul’s Lent theme of faithfulness to our country, what are we required to do?


(Bobby and Gillian Godsell, February 2016)

Saturday, 13 February 2016

ST PAUL'S PARKHURST LENT DISCUSSION GROUP 2016 - INTRODUCTION


Christian discipleship and active citizenry

INTRODUCTION

Why discipleship and citizenry? Karen Armstrong writes that “In the West we have deliberately excluded religion from political life and regard faith as an essentially private activity. But this is a modern development…and would have been incomprehensible to both Jesus and Paul” {thanks so much, Michele and Gail, for lending us Armstrong’s 2015 book St Paul, the misunderstood apostle}

In South Africa, in 2016, how does being a disciple relate to being a citizen? What resources and guidelines can Christians draw on as they work out how to relate to government, state, and other citizens?

There will be five separate topics in the series of discussions.

Tuesday 16 Feb : The disciple citizen in SA in 2016: What Roman citizenship meant to Paul, the responsibilities of the disciple citizen SA

Tuesday 23 Feb : The disciple citizen and God: the place the Creator dreamed for me in a political, social and economic world. Rendering unto Caesar: who is Caesar and what must the disciple citizen render unto him?

Tuesday 1 March The disciple citizen and the workplace: the citizen as employee, employer, customer and consumer.

Tuesday 8 March The disciple citizen and the family: what do God, family and citizenship have to do with one another?

Tuesday 15 March The disciple citizen in society: Gospel journeys in a 21st century South Africa. Stewardship of all creation. Prophetic hope.  The citizen as a compatriot.


Bobby and Gillian Godsell February 2016

LENT COURSE: SESSION 1



The Disciple Citizen
In this first session we will explore what the words disciple and citizen could mean for us in South Africa in 2016.

On discipleship
Dietrich Bonhoeffer published a book in 1937 The cost of discipleship.  For him a disciple is someone who not only believes in Christ but lives his words.  And the most important words for the disciple are those found in Matthew 25.
“For when I was hungry, you gave me food; when thirsty, you gave me drink; when I was a stranger you took me into your home, when naked you clothed me; when I was ill you came to my help, when in prison you visited me.” 25:34 to 37

Bonhoeffer says bluntly:
"The only proper response to this word which Jesus brings with him from eternity is simply to do it. Jesus has spoken: his is the word, ours the obedience. Only in the doing of it does the word of Jesus retain its honour, might and power among us. Cost of Discipleship, page 174.

On citizenship
A history of this concept reveals an ambiguous combination of blood and values.  The values of a citizen in the new South Africa are best described in the Preamble to our constitution:

“We, the people of South Africa,
Recognise the injustices of our past;
Honour those who suffered for justice and freedom in our land;
Respect those who have worked to build and develop our country; and
Believe that South Africa belongs to all who live in it, united in our diversity.
KEY QUESTION FOR THIS FIRST SESSION
What does it mean to be a disciple citizen in South Africa IN 2016?
How do we best live the words ‘South Africa belongs to all who live in it, united in our diversity?
How should followers of Christ incorporate a love of country into obedience for the Sermon on the Mount?
The rights of South African citizenship are set out in the Bill of Rights in our Constitution.  For the disciple citizen what are the responsibilities of citizenship?



Disciple

In the languages of our scriptures this word is found its its Hebrew form limmud; in Greek machetes;  and in Latin discipulus.    In the New Testament this term refers broadly to those who accept the teachings of others (John the Baptist, the Pharisees, or Moses) and more narrowly to the adherents of Jesus. [The New Bible Dictionary, page 312].

One of the most challenging writers about this concept in contemporary times is Dietrich Bonhoeffer, and most directly in his first major book The cost of discipleship. In this book he draws the sharp distinction between cheap and costly grace. His concept of costly grace is well explained in this quote:

"Costly grace is the sanctuary of God; it has to be protected from the world, and not thrown to the dogs.  It is therefore the living word, the Word of God, which he speaks as it pleases him.  Costly grace confronts us as a gracious call to follow Jesus, it comes as a word of forgiveness to the broken spirit and the contrite heart.  Grace is costly because it compels a man to submit to the yoke of Christ and follow him; it is grace because Jesus says; 'My yoke is easy and my burden light." [The Cost of Discipleship, page 37.

Bonhoeffer pulls no punches in setting out the demands of discipleship.

"The only proper response to this word which Jesus brings with him from eternity is simply to do it. Jesus has spoken: his is the word, ours the obedience. Only in the doing of it does the word of Jesus retain its honour, might and power among us. Now the storm can rage over the house, but it cannot shatter that union with him, which his word has created." [The cost of discipleship, pages 174 and 175]

The crispest and clearest statement of what Jesus expects of his disciples is to be found towards the end of Matthew’s Gospel.  There is rich content in both Chapters 24 and 25 of Matthew’s Gospel.  But verses 31 to 46 in Chapter 25 are a good indication.

“When the Son of Man comes in his glory and all the angels with him, he will sit in state on his throne, with all the nations gathered before him.  He will separate men into two group, as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats, and he will place the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.  Then the king will say to those on his right, ”You have my Father blessing; come enter and posses the kingdom that has been ready for you since the world was made. For when I was hungry, you gave me food; when thirsty, you gave me drink; when I was a stranger you took me into your home, when naked you clothed me; when I was ill you came to my help, when in prison you visited me.”  Then the righteous will replay, “Lord, when was it that we saw you hungry and fed you, or thirsty and gave you a drink, a stranger and took you home, or naked and clothed you? When did we see you ill or in prison, and come to visit you? And the king will answer, “I tell you this: anything you did for one of my brothers here, however humble, you did for me.” Then he will say to those on his left hand, “The curse if upon you; go from my sight to the eternal fire that is ready for the devil and his angels.  For when I was hungry you gave me nothing to eat, when thirsty nothing to drink; when I was a stranger you gave me no home, when naked you did not clothe me`: when I was ill and in prison you did not come to my help.” And they will reply, “Lord, when was it that we saw you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or ill or in prison, and did nothing for you?” And he will answer, “I tell you this: anything you did not di for one of these, however humble, you did not do for me.” And they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous will enter eternal life.” Mathew 25: 31 to 46 New English Bible.   

In Bonhoeffer's times and circumstances this firstly called on all German Christians to speak out and stand in solidarity with German Jews.  Subsequently it required Bonhoeffer to join a difficult, ambiguous and ultimately failed conspiracy to remove Hitler from power.

What does Jesus expect of his South African disciples in 2016?

Citizens

In its earliest usage the term citizen denoted an inhabitant of a city or town.  In later and more general usage it came to mean an enfranchised inhabitant of a country.

Roman Citizenship

Sean A Adams has written an excellent paper entitled "Paul the Roman Citizen: Roman Citizenship in the ancient world and its importance for understanding Acts 22: 22 - 29,"   To access this 18 page paper in full go to www.academica.edu>Paul the Roman Citizen.

In Roman times citizenship could be acquired in five ways:
* by birth (also through the father's line)
* By manumission - freed slaves were often made citizens
* By service in the Roman army
* As a gift conferred by the Emperor on prominent citizens
* Or bought (often through unofficial means).

The benefits of Roman citizenship included:
* immunity from at least some taxes
* Access to the courts
* The right to vote, at least in local elections
* The right not be tortured, scourged or crucified.

The missionary life of Saint Paul benefited enormously from his Roman citizenship.

British Citizenship

The citizenship of empires and also rich countries has often been attractive to outsiders.

As Britain progressed from a small island at the edge of the civilized world (as in the time of Julius Caesar) to being one of the largest empires in human history the nature of British nationality and citizenship became more and more confused.   Essentially the battle for who could claim British citizenship, with full rights, became the contest between blood and conquest.  This contest is most clearly indicated by the British Nationality Act of 1948 which created a new class of Citizen of the United Kingdom and Colonies.  CUKC's This applied to British Subjects who had a close relationship, through birth or descent (blood) with the United Kingdom and its Colonies.  Note that Canada, Australia, New Zealand and South Africa at this time has the status of Dominions (not colonies) unlike the not white parts of the Empire such as Ghana and India.  These unfortunately anagrammed CUKC's were to obtain citizenship of either Britain or the de colonized independent states which remained in the Commonwealth such as India.  Until they did they were subjects but not citizens.  They did have the right however to enter and remain in Britain, and tens of thousands of such CUKC's, first from the Caribbean, and then from India and Pakistan did so. 

From 1960's onwards Britain has progressively narrowed the concept of its citizenship.   Descent from a Grandparent still may be a ground for this status.  And those with both the intent and capacity to invest at least one million pounds in Britain can become citizens through investment.



South African Citizenship


Until 1994 the right to citizenship of our country was defined by race.  Indeed the Bantustan project involved tens of millions of South Africans losing their national identity and even limited rights of citizenship.

In terms of the 1995 South African Citizenship Act people become citizens in four main ways:
* by being born within the borders of South African;(birth)
* By being born outside these borders but to a parent who is a citizen (descent)
* By becoming a citizen after a period of residence in South Africa (naturalization)
* By entering into a spousal relationship with a South African citizen (naturalization).

Subject or citizen?

Simon Schama chose a one word title for his history of the French Revolution.  That word was citizen.  For in that Revolution, with its consequences both wonderful and terrible, every French person changed from being the subjects of the French KIng to becoming citizen co-governors of the French Republic.  That republic was founded on the core values of Liberty, equality and fraternity.

South African citizens enjoy a similar, but even better defined and defended set of rights.  The rights are set out very clearly in section 2 of the 1996 South African Constitution.  They include the right to equality, human dignity, life, freedom and security of person, freedom of religion, belief and opinion, freedom of expression, assembly, association including the right to form and participate in political parties, movement and resident, trade, occupation and profession and many more.

But as Victor Frankel observed in America the Statute of Liberty which dominates the sea entrance to New York City needs to be balanced by a Statue of Responsibility, which American citizens are hoping to erect in San Francisco.

What is expected of A south African citizen is set out in the preamble to our new constitution, adopted in 1996.

Preamble

We, the people of South Africa
Recognise the injustices of our past;
Honour those who suffered for justice and freedom in our land;
Respect those who have worked to build and develop our country; and
Believe that South Africa belongs to all who live in it,
United in our diversity.

We therefore, through our first freely elected representatives, adopt this constitution as the supreme law of the Republic so as to –
Heal the divisions of the past and establish a society based on democratic values, social justice and fundamental human rights;

Lay the foundations for a democratic and open society in which government is based on the will of the people and every citizen is equally protected by law;
Improve the quality of life of all citizens and free the potential of each person; and
Build a united and democratic South Africa able to take its rightful place as a sovereign state in the family of nations.

May God protect our people
Nkosi Sikelel iAfrika. Morena boloka sejthaba sa heso.
God seen Suid-Afrika. God bless South Africa.
Mudzimu fhatutshedza Afurike. Hosi ketekisa Afrika.

Surely the responsibilities of a South African citizen who is also a disciple of Jesus are those most emphatically set out in his words, perhaps most clearly as Bonhoeffer has argued, in the Sermon on the Mount.


So in 2016 in South Africa what are the duties, the responsibility, what is the costly grace of South African citizens?

Bobby and Gillian Godsell February 2016

Tuesday, 9 February 2016

RECEIVING SPIRITUAL SIGHT


The events of that Damascus road experience are described in Acts 26:9 - 23.   Then, in Galatians 1:11 - 24, we read Paul’s own words describing his amazing experience and transformation from being a persecutor of Christians to an apostle, an apostle not appointed by people, but appointed by God. In Mark 10:46 - 52, we hear about the healing of Bartimaeus’ physical sight and the refusal of the religious leaders to receive God’s gift of healing of their spiritual blindness, which contrasts so profoundly with Paul’s receiving of God’s gift of healing of both his physical and spiritual blindness…

The consequences of Paul allowing God to heal his spiritual sight is truly world changing: Paul is undoubtedly the greatest evangelist of all time. Not only is a large proportion of the New Testament either penned by him (or in some cases possibly by one of his follower), not only has he shared God’s touch with and thus inspired millions over two thousand years, but his thinking as handed to us through his writings have had an incredibly profound influence on Christian theology and thus the entire fabric of both Western and near Eastern thinking and culture…

For example, despite some people’s misguided thoughts to the contrary, he advocated individual freedom in a culture where the poor, sick, slaves, women and children were mere property and where the tribe’s good meant everything and individual rights were of little to no consequence. Paul’s God inspired insights influenced the human rights movement over two millennia through his amazingly visionary-for-his-time teaching that we are all equal in Christ, male and female, Gentile and Jew, slave or free and by extension black, yellow, white, gay, straight, rich, poor, so called abled or so called disabled, whatever….

What a wonderful man to celebrate….
But what Paul's conversion is really about is not Paul, but God….
God’s invitation is offered to all of us so we too may see, where we are blind, be it physically or so much more importantly, spiritually…
I know I seem to have a naïve view of God being in control, believing that God is truly working to the good in all things, even though we face natural disasters, political problems, personal crises that give many the impression that a good, omnipotent God could not be so seemingly mute to our cries, so that God must then not exist….

I truly have faith, with every fibre of my being I can muster, that God is real, good, alive and working in our times as profoundly as what we read about in scripture…

And I too have had an experience of God that has been life changing – I’ve mentioned this to some, but I’ve never publically told the story, but as I’ve told God for years if I were preaching when this feast occurred, if God so moved me, I would… So that you too might be encourages to see better, spiritually….

At 07h35 on Sunday 24 September 2006, while I was welcoming people to the service at St Martin's, I felt an excruciating, burning light that made me feel my mind was being burned up the way film used to get burned up in old projectors, and I was terrified… But almost instantaneously, I felt God’s calming, reassuring love, a love I had believed in, a love I had preached about, but a love I then realised was simply beyond words….

Like Paul, I was blind for three days, in those three days I experienced amazing visions, like flying with Jesus backed by angel chorus’ along cliffs, through hell, but even hell was not frightening, God’s love simply overwhelmed everything…

But also three days of anguish… I had a family to support, and I prayed to see again, and I started to see, a real miracle, but not an instantaneous miracle…

And I was also still so afraid – my mind (which had been my pride and joy) was shattered, I was so out of it, I could not function – doctors diagnosed a stroke, and I was so confused, I couldn’t even find my way from the bed to the bathroom and back… I knew I could not support my family in this state, and I had just cancelled the policies that would have provided for my family in such an event to join the church…  

Talk about a thorn in my side I begged God to remove! Many people prayed for healing, and unlike the instantaneous healing of the blind man in our gospel reading today, my healing took much longer, in the beginning, after 3 days I could see, but everything was dull, lifeless. As my brain healed, I became more and more functional, but it depended on constant faith…

But God was and still is truly remodelling me, I have accepted what I can bear of God’s love, of this new spiritual sight… I wish I could portray it as powerfully as Paul and others, but all I can do believe and struggle on and encourage those around to do so too…

My experiential lesson, is, I believe an important lesson our readings teach us - spiritual sight is so much more important than physical sight, and that choosing to accept, in faith, that God can and does save us, if we allow God to be in control, and that God always has and always will be working to the good in all things, and like Bartimaeus, like Paul, like millions through the years, we too can rely on God, in faith and not on our mind or our own abilities is truly the point.
Amen!

Rev Gavin Smith  January 2016